well yesterday rite...
while i was sleeping..i had the best dream i hav ever had in my entire life

krish
my hubby
esfern
my hubby dad

well it started off wit me dating this reli sweet , kind and hot guy..we had been dating for like 5 years..and on our 5th anniversary he propose..
dialoque:

---at candle light dinner wit onli him n i in a small room..all prepard by him---

omg i think i forgot sumthing today
its ok i dun think u did..hey do u knoe i want to spend my life wit u ..
huh??y do u say so all of a sudden
well we hav been together for soo long..n i want to knoe(he kneels) if u will marry me
omg omg..r u proposing..
ya it may seem so..
urm but i hav to get my parents permision..wat if they say no..n omg your parents..wat if they hate me..

[parents (mine n his) walk out..we approved..]

scream--shout--omg im getting married..
then music plays..my favourite song..suddenly there is this voice..oomg its me ..like 2 years ago when he asked me how i wanted to get married..it went like this:

hey krish how would u like to get married??
i dunno..i alwayz wanted a small wedding in hawaii with jus my family n urs n close friends..actually i want to get married like how nathan n haley got married in one tree hill..(sounds cheesy but not in my dream)
i hope i will be able to give u tat

then he says..

so do u want tat wedding..
ya..but i mean we arent exactly rich
but i am..so we r off to hawaii then..
oomg..dun lie ok.. dun lie..
im not lying..i love u ..n im gonna make ur dream come true..

scream ..suddenly esfern calls..

oomg hi esfern..
-crying-omg he was cheating on me..im so sori i din believe u krish..
its ok esfern..hey i hav good news
me breaking up wit him is not good news krish..
i knoe..but im getting maried
omg dun lie..i cant believe it..ok wait ..maybe i can..u guys were meant to be anywayz
thanks..so u wanna go hawaii..
obviously..-scream-




--then--

esfern , soph, my sisters n i go shopping for dresses..
saw this gorgeous lavender dress for the dinner party n this beautiful satin plus lace dress(white)


after the wedding i was so happy..we slowdanced n had so much fun


we went to our room..oh btw..his father owns a hotel okey..so the room we had was actually a penthouse..a 2 floor penthouse in a hotel..freaking nice wei..

later on we went to the beach ..suddenly this paparazi jumps out..saying hey sir who is tat girl u were kissing(meaning me)..

omg who was tat..y did we hav to run from him.. y was he calling u sir..
ok..i wanted to avoide this topic until at least next week but i hav to tell u sumthing..
i started to cry..wat is it??
well u knoe tat guy 7 years ago who went missing in amerika whose father was reli rich n owned a hotel..n he was a worldclass basketballer..
uhuh ya ...wat about him
well tat is me
wat the hell ..y din u tell me..
i was afraid u wouldnt love me the way u do..
well i still love u now rite..
wait..but dun u earn like 2.5 million or more a year..
ya..y??
were r rich..
ya kinda..
omg..ok..i love u cause of u ..not cause of ur money..ok
ok


i wish this dream comes true..i reli reli wish..
so to tat guy in my dream..whom did not state his name..im waiting for u ..hehe

never again

NEVER AGAIN ' s

ok..so this is my list of never again's

i will never fall for a jerk

i will never let myself be persuaded to do sumthin i dun wanna do

i will never let others bring me down

i will never stop myself from being myself

i will never let anyone stand in the way of my dreams

i will never show sympathy from those who dont do the same

i will never let my depression b taken out on food

i will never fall to the feet of others

lastly..

i will never say never..cause eventually i knoe i might do it..